Last Thursday my cousin brother was taken into hospital in an emergency as he threw up blood.
They put him on the machines straight away to ease the pain and so they can do scans.
On Friday at 5pm we got a phone call from his elder brother that he only has a few hours left.
We rushed to the hospital in a taxi and guess what nasheed was playing?
'Oh traveler you are here for a few years and the grave is your ultimate destination'.
I was shaking all the way from home to the hospital.
I had always heard about ICU but on Friday i experienced it for real.
I don't think i want to experience it again.
Well, not for a long while anyway!
We walked through the first double doors - me, my mum and dad and my nephew - and everyone was there.
My aunties, uncles, nieces, nephews, my cousins wife and kids - even extended family.
I hugged my niece and she said; 'Chacha (uncle) is leaving us.
His 11 year old son was sitting next to her...quiet.
Walked through the second double doors and saw another family in another room leaving, crying.
Walked through the third double doors and the room was packed!
All i could hear was Surah Yaseen being recited loudly by my uncles and few other relatives reciting the kalima loudly.
I slowly walked forward....and there he was...on the bed....on the machines...
I grew up at my aunties house (khala) as a kid and my cousin brothers used to take me over.
I grew up as their little baby sister.
I was there at ICU for 7 hours and said my goodbyes.
I came home and tossed and turned all night.
At 7am my mum told me that he returned to Allah.
His heart went down and down and they switched the machines off and at 4am the Angel of Death took him.
Saturday was his Janazah and we sent him off.
He had nour shining from his face and he was smiling.
Over 100 people attended the burial and every single person praised his character and personality and continues to praise him.
Let my brothers death be a reminder for us all - because reminders benefit the believers and as humans we need constant reminders - we easily forget and get caught up in this life.
- He had been ill for 3 years and he left this world within 48 hours.
- He was scheduled for an appointment in London in 6 weeks for treatment yet his appointment with Allah came before that.
- He was the youngest of his brothers and his elderly mum is poorly. Yet his time came.
How many times have we heard of instant deaths when someone was absolutely fine and the next minute they're gone?
This teaches us that this life is not a guarantee for 100+ years.
We don't take anything with us except our deeds.
We don't even have to have an illness and our time could be up.
So let's ask ourselves;
* Am I praying all my 5 compulsory prayers on time?
* Am I spending time with the Qur'an daily?
* Am I doing dhikr and tasbee and keeping my tongue moist with the remembrance of Allah?
* Am I actively seeking knowledge and implementing it in my life?
* Am I learning about the rules and rites of life and death and everything in between?
Because the reality is that you and I don't know about all the rites and rules!
The reality is that we're living in ignorance and even in sin.
Even when we find out the rules and rites we actively choose to ignore it.
We listen to laws by man yet ignore those by Allah.
We don't actively seek to know so live in ignorance and sin.
We have no one to blame! No western illuminati masonicy conspiracy cult.
You and I are to blame!
Right now we seek Allah's forgiveness from our ignorance.
Right now we decide to seek knowledge, implement it and teach it.
Right now we prepare for our meeting with the Angel of Death.
Right now is when we decide to live on purpose with purpose.
If you've read this then now you're not in ignorance any more.
Now you decide which path to take.
Let's take the path which leads to Allah.
My cousin Ramzan was in his early 40's and leaves behind his elderly, poorly mum, brothers, nieces and nephews.
He also leaves behind a wife who is 35 years old and 5 children age 14, 11, 7, 6 and 5.
Please keep them in your duas as they are the ones whose life has changed forever....
Nadia Leona Yunis